I got that a lot

I got that a lot.

When I read the title, I thought for a moment and recalled all the memories since I was child. There were many things crossed my mind about my past especially what people thought about me..what their expectation to me...what the other's first impression towards me... It is because since I was child I kept heard the same things. Everywhere I went, what people think about me is the same. Sometimes, I got tired to hear that because I hope that people will see me from difference side.*but I am sure that is impossible

My friends always said that I am a spoiled child and sometimes, they asked me weather I am the youngest in my family..hahahahaha.. I don't know how to argue it because not only my friend said it, but my elder sisters too. I think it is because when I stayed at the hostel during secondary school I was always homesick and cry because I miss my parents. Every time I went home, my father will take me although I can take the bus. 

Besides, I am always got the same first impression. People who don't know me will think I am quiet and arrogant. I am agree with that because I am really don't know how to be friendly with others. I don't know how to start the conversation with someone I don't know and what should I talk with her. But, when I know them I will be the most talkative person. Even I can speak non - stop for two hours with her once I have been comfort with her. Sometimes, people who don't especially my mother's friends, will think that I am a gentle girl. But, deep in my heart I really hate it because I wish people will think that I am a tomboyish girl. In primary school, my ambition was to be an engineer until one day, my sister told me that if I be an engineer, I can't stand with the career.

Since primary school, my family always put high expectation on me. They always expect me to get number one in class, they wanted me to get straight As not only in UPSR but PMR and also SPM. I'm very grateful because I can make their dream comes true. Since I am in kindergarten until in secondary school, my parents kept asking me to be a doctor and now I am relieved because I was a step forward in achieving what they wanted. I was afraid that I can realize their dreams, so that I will study harder and do my best in every examination. 

Last but not least, during secondary school, I was study at one of the boarding school that is Sekolah Menengah Sains Sultan Mahmud. People always expect that all student from the boarding school were intelligent. I am a little bit not agree with the opinion because for me the way you study in primary is a little bit different with secondary school. So that, when you get 5A in UPSR that not mean that you are also an intelligent in secondary school.