I got that a lot

I got that a lot.

When I read the title, I thought for a moment and recalled all the memories since I was child. There were many things crossed my mind about my past especially what people thought about me..what their expectation to me...what the other's first impression towards me... It is because since I was child I kept heard the same things. Everywhere I went, what people think about me is the same. Sometimes, I got tired to hear that because I hope that people will see me from difference side.*but I am sure that is impossible

My friends always said that I am a spoiled child and sometimes, they asked me weather I am the youngest in my family..hahahahaha.. I don't know how to argue it because not only my friend said it, but my elder sisters too. I think it is because when I stayed at the hostel during secondary school I was always homesick and cry because I miss my parents. Every time I went home, my father will take me although I can take the bus. 

Besides, I am always got the same first impression. People who don't know me will think I am quiet and arrogant. I am agree with that because I am really don't know how to be friendly with others. I don't know how to start the conversation with someone I don't know and what should I talk with her. But, when I know them I will be the most talkative person. Even I can speak non - stop for two hours with her once I have been comfort with her. Sometimes, people who don't especially my mother's friends, will think that I am a gentle girl. But, deep in my heart I really hate it because I wish people will think that I am a tomboyish girl. In primary school, my ambition was to be an engineer until one day, my sister told me that if I be an engineer, I can't stand with the career.

Since primary school, my family always put high expectation on me. They always expect me to get number one in class, they wanted me to get straight As not only in UPSR but PMR and also SPM. I'm very grateful because I can make their dream comes true. Since I am in kindergarten until in secondary school, my parents kept asking me to be a doctor and now I am relieved because I was a step forward in achieving what they wanted. I was afraid that I can realize their dreams, so that I will study harder and do my best in every examination. 

Last but not least, during secondary school, I was study at one of the boarding school that is Sekolah Menengah Sains Sultan Mahmud. People always expect that all student from the boarding school were intelligent. I am a little bit not agree with the opinion because for me the way you study in primary is a little bit different with secondary school. So that, when you get 5A in UPSR that not mean that you are also an intelligent in secondary school.

Making Judgement..

   Hi everyone and happy new year. I hope this 2016 will be the most wonderful year in our life. 

It is human nature to compare others to yourself or someone else. It is not just certain people who judge others, but everyone does, from child to adult.

Our judgments when we are pleased and friendly are not the same as when we are pained and hostile. -Aristotle

    I strongly agree with the quote. The judgement that we made usually influenced by the emotion and feeling.  For example, when we don't like someone, we tend judge him negatively even he is doing the right things.  On the other hand, when we like someone, we will judge him positively even he is the wrong things. Judgement depends on our emotion, feeling and mood.

Besides, most people very worry about their appearance and how people see them. It is because people always judge people based on their external. Sometimes, the judgement might be true, but in some situations, people can change  their external appearance to fit with the situation.

I can relate my experience from my own life. After SPM, I work at a mall as a promoter to fill my leisure time. People assumed I was lazy to further my study so that I work there. Judging book by its cover can lead to mistaken assumptions.

A Movie Based On True Story That Inspires Me...

   Remember The Titans is a story about a football team, The Titans that having a new coach. A white football coach before replaced by a black coach, Herman Boone. It cause white player and their parents not satisfied about it. During the training white and black player do not mix and hostile to each other.

    In a training camp, the coach fix the relationship between black and white player. He made them sit together in the bus and even having roommates of different race. The players slowly understand and accept each other. After the camp, they are united and shared same goal that is to win the championship.

      Nearing the championship games, one of the white player, Gerry gets into an incident cause him paralyze. This hurts the team badly because he is their captain, but incident did not broken their spirit. They go to the championship game and becoming the champion. 

     A few years later, Gerry was killed by a drunk driver. The Titans gather together at the funeral session for Gerry. The most touching part when they sing together the "Kiss Him Goodbye". This scene make me cry because of their strong friendship.

    Na na na na na na na na, hey hey, goodbye
    He'll never love you, the way i love you
    'Cause if he did, no no, he wouldn't make you cry
    He might be thrillin' baby but a-my love (my love, my love)
    So dog-gone willin'So kiss him (I wanna see you kiss him)
    Go on and kiss him goodbye....

       This story taught me that I can't judge people based on their appearance. When the black coach replace the before coach, the white players and their parents get pessimistic to him. Actually he is a good coach because not only coach them football to win the championship, but also make them being respect to each other without thinking about their skin colour. 

    Besides, the most exciting part I remember, when a player dumped his girlfriend because she refused to shake hands with his black friend. This show how a friendship is important and anything else. In addition, it show that everyone should be treated equally, doesn't matter that you are black or white, rich or poor.

      In order to win any games cooperation is the most important, we should work together. It's about team, it's not about individuals. At first the team member do not play well, but after they get along, siting together and sharing the same jokes they can play well. The contribution of each team member are important for the team to succeed. 

       Last but not least, winning is fun. For me The Titans has win when they can get along each other. They even can be a best friends and close each other. They can broke the gap between the whites and blacks.

I'm a winner. I'm going to win. - Coach Boone

      These words really effect my life. It shows how important for us to believe in ourself. However, ambition is only the first step. The second step is action.

       Watching Remember The Titans is not a waste. It is not only amuse me but also give me the moral values of live.  So, everyone should watch this movie.

How would your life be different if you can see the future?

My life will be different if I can see the future. I will change my future. I want my  life going to be perfect. Even thought, my life will be a little bit bored with no surprise, I'll be okay. I'm going to change my future. There will no more lose in my life. I'll be the winner no matter what happen.
 
1. Study - I will be the best student in future. hahaha.. No matter what happen. If  I can see the future, of course  I'm going to know what type of question that going to be ask during the examination. With that, I can focus and study more on the topics that are going come out.  So, I'll use this specialty wisely to ensure that I'll get full marks in every examination and test. That's will make me be the best student in the college. Very cruel right?hahaa 

2. Occupation - I will make sure that I will have a good occupation. For example, it is written for me to be a teacher in future, but I'm going to struggle more to ensure that I'll able to achieve my ambition. Being a doctor is my dream since I was child. So, by hook or by crook I'll change the future. 

3. Family - I will make sure that my family going to be a very happy family forever and ever. I will ensure that our relationship will last forever like how it going now even after this we are having own children and partner of course.

4. Parents - Taking care of my parents is my dreams since child. I want them live with me in future so that I can monitor their health as I am future doctor. hahaha

5. Husband -  This is the most interesting part. I hope that in future I am going to have a very understanding husband. He need to understand my work as a doctor because I will be very busy with all those on call and so on. 

6. Children -  I hope in future I will have a very happy family with my children and beloved husband. I will grown  my children with a lot of love and enough knowledge about our religious.

7. Cars - In future, I always dreams to have my own car that I will buy with my own salary. My dream car for now Tucson but who knows, in future there are many new design that will attract me.

8. Charity - In my dreams I want to open a welfare house for orphans. If I not manage to do that, I will donate my money to them.

9. Appearance - I will be a successful doctor in future. I will be like if Dr. Beni, that one of the doctor most of you know. He is a cardiologist.  hahahaha...

10. Wealth - hahaha..I want to be the riches doctor. It's only my dream but if it comes true I am very grateful.

I am always hoping that I will get all of this in future. Even it is sound a bit hard, but I believe nothing impossible in life. 

“It's possible to go on, no matter how impossible it seems.” ― Nicholas Sparks

Tips on How To Be Confident To Speak in English

There are nothing easy in this world. Nevertheless, we can improve ourself to make everything easy. Here, I want to share 10 tips on how to be confident when speaking in English.

1. Prepare well

You must do some preparation on what you are going to talk. When you know well about what you are going to talk, it will increase your confident level.

2. Practice

Practice a lot before you present, it will make you more confident. By practicing, you can improve yourself. Try to talk by yourself or try practicing in front of mirror.

3. Repeating song lines

You can improve your pronouciation by repeating the song lines and dialogs in movie. It will make you able to speak fluently because you will start to familiarize with the English words. Besides, you can learn new words from dialogs and song lines too.

4. Read more

You must have the interest to read in English. You can read novel, magazines and newspaper. Choose something to read base on your own interest. For example, if you love sports you can read sports section in the newspaper. By reading, you can increase you vocabulary and make you familiar with the grammar rules. In addition, you can learn to make variety type of sentences.

5. Always use the language

When talking to your friends; use English. Make yourself familiar with English language. With that, you will never face problem to speak in English and avoid being shy when using it.

6. Read out loud

By reading, you not only can increase your vocabulary, but the pronunciation too. You can practice your pronunciation with  the new words. Besides, you can learn phonetic that is how to pronoun English words correctly.

7. Have interest.

You should have interest when it comes to English. Set in your mind that English are easy and fun. Always focus in English class and don't fall asleep. With the effort you put on, you can improve your English a lot.

8. Do not afraid to do any mistakes

Always learn from the mistakes and take the comment positively to improve your English. There are no one born with all the knowledge and everyone learn from zero to be a hero.

9. Never give up

Don't stop trying. If you fail once it is okay. You can try again many times and improve yourself. So, you will be a better person and the success will be yours.

It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop.- Confucius

10. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF

The most important thing is believing yourself. It is wasteful if you have learn and study, but you don't have confident in yourself. Set in your mind that you can do it.

I hope by practicing the tips, your confident level to speak in English will increase. Good luck in your future.

Challenges in acquring English Language

English Language. Like I have written before, it is one of the subject that I do not like since secondary school. English subject always drag my result down. So, to ensure that I can be a doctor I have to improve my English because it will ease my understanding in what I am going to learn and communicate with others. Most reference books are in English besides, English is the International Language. Here are some challenges that I have to face in acquiring English.

1. Not using English unless in class.
-English is not used at home. 

2. Lack of vocabulary.
-Lazy to search the meaning in dictionary.

3. A mindset that English is difficult.
-Too many things that I need to know such as adverb, adjective and articles.

4. Not confident to use English.
-Not believing in myself.

5. Too many rules for grammar.
-Sometime there are exceptional rules.

6. Mistakes in pronunciation.
-Especially words that are rarely found.

7. Afraid of making mistakes.
-When I attempt to speak English outside the classroom, I am afraid poeple will mock me.

8. There are different meanings for one word.
-I get confuse and forget the meaning.

9. English class is not interesting.
-I am always sleepy in class.

10. I do not like to try something new.
-I don't like to take any risks.


I keep in mind that I have to overcome the challenges.

The New Me...

Hello everyone....

It was like a dream comes true when I got a call from Yayasan Terengganu to inform me that I was offered to receive the scholarship to further study in Medicine. It is very hard for me to accept the offer since I already study in International Islamic University Malaysia. I already make a few friends there. So, if I accept the offer I have to start from the begining. I have to make new friends. Thinking about my parents' wish that they want me to be a doctor, I accepted the offer. So, I began to be TATI UC student. Luckily, I have a friend from my secondary school there. So, on the first day I already have a friend. I only talked to her. That's what makes people think I am arrogant.

People who does not know me always say I am quite arrogant and do not care about other people and I could not agree more because what they are thinking of me are undeniable. I do not like to approach someone that I do not know. However, when I am close to someone I will be a very talkative and friendly person. So, I'm trying my best to change my personality.

English is the subject that I really do not  like since secondary school. So I bear in my mind to improve my English before I enter the university.  In order to achieve my dreams to be a doctor I need to comprehend my problem with English. Firstly, I tried to read an English novel. My first novel took 1 month to finish it even the novel is very thin. Then, I started to listen English songs. I barely playing the song from the music player before but the new me really love to listen to English song.

'Sometimes tend to be never.'

 That  words keep singing in my mind after I read a book during my last semester break. I keep in my mind that I should change this semester. No matter what happen by hook or by crook I have to change. Last semester I use to postpone my assignment to be done at the eleventh hour. Besides, I  always studied last minute for exam and any test. I hope this semester I will change myself and be more hardworking.